Karen, Darren, and Sharon

I was raised in a house of worry

Every time my parents went out I thought it’d be the end of me

Every move I made was OCD 

Thought the slightest misstep would spell tragedy

T was for try, as in try not to die

R was for really, is that really a life?

A was for always, I’m always afraid

G was for God sees all my mistakes

E was for every time I washed my hands

D was for do it all over again

Y I don’t know

But those days are over now

I don’t wanna be careful

I wanna be caring

I don’t wanna be doubtful

I’d rather be daring

I don’t wanna be shameful

When I could be sharing

Keeping my heart full

With room for the sparing

And I won’t settle

No I won’t settle

Woke up today to count my blessings

Every stranger I saw on the street looked like a friend to me

Forgave my faulty faculties

Had some more time on my hands without the worrying

So I softened the silence surrounding my soul

Cleaned the cobwebs out of where I dared not go

Learned a few lessons, let a few get away

But that’s okay because that’s okay

I don’t need a sugar coat

But don’t need the gloom

Some flowers arrange themselves

And some just don’t bloom

Why? I don’t know

But I don’t need to now

Groundhog Day

So you’re starting to suspect you’ve lost your mind

Or at least the one you had

You can’t remember the last time that your thoughts formed a straight line

And most of them are pretty bad 

Every time the morning comes, it’s harder to leave bed

Groundhog day was funnier on film

You’re struggling to see past your nose

Dressing down in dirty clothes

And putting your prayers in a purple pill

Write this down

Keep it safe

Take it out on your dark days

You’re worthy
Don’t worry

You’re hurting
Don’t hurry

But what if you're not breaking down, but starting to wake up?

And the morning’s just the hardest part?

‘Cause you’re purging ancient patterns and some other useless junk

Making room for a bigger heart

You’ve memorized the feeling of how things used to be

But yesterday was just a bridge to now

And even though it hurts it’s helping

You don’t need to sweat the ending

However it works out, it all works out

Write this down

Keep it safe

Say it loud on your dark days

You’re worthy
Don’t worry
You’re hurting
Don’t hurry

You’re putting up new power lines 

Get off the grid and stay a while until

They’re secure and steady

Everything in its own time

Take a breath and close your eyes they will 

So Long For Now

Hey there

When we first met I was in a dark place

Hardly recognized my own face in the mirror

So scared

That I had gone a little crazy

Saw demons in my daydreams

Feasting on my fears

You through me

A lifeline to a world of magic

Calm I’d never imagined I possessed

Thought we’d

I thought we’d always be together

How could it get any better?

Well I think you know the rest

Wake and bake most every day

Laughing all my cares away

Finding friends in foreign places

Just to catch a buzz

Paranoia creeping in 

Well before I realized it

Oh good the demon’s back again

I hadn’t had enough

So long for now my sweet seductress

So long for now sleeping past noon

Goodbye to all the times when I was such a mess

And I thought that I’d feel better if I just said High to you

Maybe for a while that was true

So long to now

This last time

I let you back in you had promised

That you’d always speak honestly with me

Nice try

I still found myself lost and lonely

Under all the lies you told me

And books I meant to read

‘Cause I’m having trouble waking up 

And putting off important stuff

And feeling like I’m not enough

And I might never be

So long for now my sweet seductress

So long for now sleeping til noon

Goodbye to all the times when I was such a mess

And I thought that I’d feel better if I just said High to you

Maybe for a while that was true

Lately all it does is kill the mood

So long for now

Burned out

Thought I’d have nice stoned sunday

But it didn’t feel like funday anymore

Done now

Spent too long romanticizing

And Isbell prophetizing is too hard to ignore

The Last Two Weeks

I don’t wanna be sad and stoned

But it sure beats being just sad

Car won’t start had to be towed

There went my long weekend

So I went to town on 5 tacos

They never even stood a chance

Cars still broke so KloE drove

And now I don’t feel as bad

But the last two weeks have been the longest

Year of my life

Wasn’t all that sure that I’d survive

Beaten down for being honest

Not quite crucified

But bloodied up enough to dim the light

I know

I deserve more love, not less

More love, not less

I know

When it starts to storm I will 

Love more, not less

Love more, not less

I will

I just wanna be home alone

With a good book in my pjs 

Reading about how the world’s not broke

If you’re looking in the right place

Try not to be cynical 

With the things I know I can’t change

Some people wanna be miserable

I won’t make the same mistake

‘Cause the last two weeks have made me stronger

Than I’ve ever been

Never thought I’d say that and mean it

It may have taken a little longer than I’d been hopin’

But what’s a few more days of sleepin’ in?

Tom Hanks

Remember Minneapolis?

It was cold as hell

For those wedding bells

But they rang no less

Your Mom drove my weed, unknowingly 

Across state lines

The first time I met Margaret

Hit on the Mother of the Bride

Oh we've come such a long way my friend

Just in case one of us is lost or dead

Way too soon

I hope you always knew

I wouldn't trade you for a thing

Even for the chance to meet Tom Hanks 

I’d stay here with you,

‘Til you could meet him too

‘Cause that's what friends do

When friendship was just a theory

In the olden days

Before the picture framed

My Sophomore year

It might have never occurred to you

Least not suddenly

That we'd both be right here some day

But it was always clear to me

Oh we've come such a long way my friend

Just in case one of us is lost or dead

Way too soon

I hope you always knew

I wouldn't trade you for a thing

Even for the chance to meet Tom Hanks 

I’d stay here with you,

‘Til you could meet him too

‘Cause that's what friends do

If you had to pick a favorite

Just one memory

Would it be easy?

For me it is

That time we drove back from Evanston

When you curbed your car

Almost killed all four of us

But I’ve never laughed so hard

Oh we've come such a long way my friend

Just in case one of us is lost or dead

Way too soon

I hope you always knew

I wouldn't trade you for a thing

Not even for the chance to meet Tom Hanks 

I’d stay here with you,

‘Til you could meet him too

‘Cause that's what friends do

Grace, You’re So Full Of It

A model who knows how to use a semicolon 

A perfect 10 across the board

You never quite show all the cards you’re holdin’

The ones I’ve seen I can’t ignore

‘Cause even just a moment, can turn around a day

You’re so much more than just a pretty face

You’re so full of grace

You’re so full of it

You’re so full of it

You’re so full of grace

Grace, you’re so full of it 

You’re so full of it

You’re so full of grace

You’re stupid not dumb, and a different generation

But wits like those I’ve never seen

Canyon opened up to a whole new wild dimension 

One plus one might equal three

‘Cause even just a moment, feels like all of time

From the looks of it I think I’d like to stay a while

Grace, you’re so full of it

You’re so full of it

You’re so full of grace

Grace, you’re so full of it 

You’re so full of it

You’re so full of grace

Both Things Can Be True

Got a devil on my left

And an angel on my right

Listenin’ to them bickerin’

Has kept me up at night 

The things that you said 

And the things you didn’t say

Trade hopes and horrors of wanting more

In the bed that I have made 

Thought that we were good 

But now the bad is in the news

Try to narrow it all down to one

But don’t know how to choose

One thing they don’t tell ya is that both things can be true

Both things can be true

I can hate the way this feels

And still love you 

Yeah both things can be true

I can want to be that man 

But still have to pay my dues

I spent so long 

Claiming truth

With no clue

The war outside my window

And the one inside my heart

Think I’m different with my intent

But they’re not that far apart

‘Cause I thought that I was honest 

But turns out I’m telling lies

My altruism’s a mechanism

To be worthy in your eyes

Want so bad to be good

But then the burden lands on you

Gotta make peace with the violence

That’s living in me too

Yeah it might not make much sense

But both things can be true

That Eagles Cover Band

Something wanted us to see this place

Even If Just for a minute

To Know the possibility exists

Still can’t quite believe it did

Never thought that I would get that close

Now I’m grieving that I actually got to know

Didn’t think I’d have to let you go this soon

Not sure that I’m able to

I know it’s for the best now honey

Still that don’t change the fact

We got a glimpse of heaven but we 

Had to give it right on back

Now every time I close my eyes

I see the way you held my hand in your lap

Do you really think I’d just forget about that?

Felt like I could be myself again

Held in ways I’d always wanted

Then just as it was sinking in

You’re gone and I’m scared it’s something I did

But when I’m worried that you’ll stay away

I remember I own every record in the whole arcade

Not much more that I could do to make you stay

So maybe there’s still some day

I know it’s for the best now honey

Still that don’t change the fact

We got a glimpse of heaven but we 

Had to give it right on back

Now every time I close my eyes

I hear that Eagles cover band and your laugh

Do you really think I’d just forget about that?

I know it’s for the best now honey

Still that don’t change the fact

We got a glimpse of heaven but we 

Had to give it right on back

Now every time I close my eyes

I feel the way you loved me just as I am

Do you really think I’d just forget about that?

For All I Know

For all I know

You could be listening to me 

Singing you to sleep right now

You could be thinking of 

When we met with tears to show

Missing me like I do you

Sensing we both got work to do

To get us where we actually want to go

For all I know

I could be in the only place 

That brings you back to me

I could be feeling through the pain 

Of all those meant to be’s

Crying out to make some room

For everything we said we’d do

Before I saw the space swallow the dream

Yeah for all I know 

There’s no way that I can lose

For all I know 

It’s not up to me to choose

Maybe I’m a masochist 

Spent my whole life chasing after this 

Maybe it’s time to stop

For all I know 

For all I know

There could be much more 

To this life than I give credit for

There could be timing so divine

That it blows off the doors

Of everything I thought I knew 

And everything that you knew too

And it’s all that we can do not to keep score

Yeah for all I know 

There’s no way that I can lose

For all I know 

It’s not up to me to choose

Maybe I’m a masochist 

Spent my whole life chasing after this 

Maybe it’s time to stop

For all I know 

The GOAT

I hate learning about your life 

Through pictures on the internet

I know that I could mute ‘em 

But I haven’t found the courage yet

I’d still rather take the knife

Of seeing you in that wedding dress

And now I know it was for a shoot

And I got hitched was in quotes 

But upon first sight

How could I have known

Thought you married a Yankee

When I’d still pick you number one

Even if it was 84 again

And I had a shot at Jordan

Maybe I don’t like a sure thing

Maybe I’m losing my mind

Or maybe I believe every word you ever said

And know maybe you’re once in a lifetime

Maybe you’re only here to get my head out of my ass

And give me a shot worth the taking

‘Cause I’m so tired of maybe

I’m so tired of maybe

Think the thing I miss the most

Is the t-shirt that you wore to bed

If that’s even what you’d call it

Torn practically to fishnets

Next up Billy Joel

Wonder If I’ll get to see it

And oh yeah speaking of 

Never thought you’d be The Stranger

Still feel you on full moons

Like you’re everywhere and nowhere

But I guess that’s how it goes

When you fall for the chaotic good

Still, even if it was 84 again

And I had a shot at Jordan

Maybe I don’t like a sure thing

Maybe I’m losing my mind

Or maybe I believe every word you ever said

And know maybe you’re once in a lifetime

Maybe you were only here to get my head out of my ass

And give me a shot worth the taking

‘Cause I’m so tired of maybe

I’m so tired of maybe

Calls From Omaha

I haven’t been the same 

Since that weekend in the bay 

We were living on a cloud, not much said out loud

But I heard it all anyway

You always played close to the vest

Brought me to my knees with your head upon my chest

Feels greedy to keep taking 

When you’ve already saved me 

I’ve been missing calls from Omaha 

Thinking about the way it was

When you finally let your guard down for me 

And I know you’re out in New York now

And it’s not like we talked about 

So maybe we should just flip a coin

‘Cause whatever happens next 

Forever was never the point 

It’s growing silent in the canyon 

I see your shadow where you haven’t been standin’

Had to go back to that place, and give myself some Grace

To get on with my life again

It’s funny how things change

You paint a picture and think it’ll always look that way

But one headlight starts to dim

And mountains keep on moving  

I’ve been missing calls from Omaha 

Thinking about the way it was

When you finally let your guard down for me 

And I know you’re out in New York now

And it’s not like we talked about 

So maybe we should just flip a coin

‘Cause whatever happens next 

Forever was never the point 

Forever was never the point 

Beautiful Creature

I wanted to know who you are

& Not who you could be for me

Would’ve held the darkest parts 

But you had to go into hiding

And I won’t make that about me

I won’t make that about you

Just the way it had to be

Silence always tells the truth

Wish it could always be last september

You were the best part of a bad year

But it’s time to surrender, this place will always be here

Beautiful creature 

Beautiful creature

Beautiful creature

My algorithm’s only twin flames

The radio’s playing tricks on me

Everywhere I go I see your name

Or I’m addicted to seeing signs

Wish it could always be last september

You were the best part of a bad year

But it’s time to surrender, this place will always be here

Beautiful creature 

Beautiful creature

Beautiful creature

No fatal blow or lost love

At least nothing we can’t replace

We didn’t go down in flames

And that’s our saving grace

Silence and Surrender

Will always go together

Like you and me eternally 

Connected to each other

Beautiful creature

Beautiful creature 

Beautiful creature 

Beautiful creature

Beautiful creature 

Your Strange Disease

I know you have to leave

Just please don’t be gone forever

‘Cause I caught your strange disease

And I don’t know if I’ll ever

Get it out my system

So far you’re drug resistant 

And it sure as hell ain’t for lack of tryin’

So take all the space you need 

And I’ll do the best with mine 

And if you ever get the nerve to call

I’d be happy to say hi again

And even if that’s all it is

To know that we both still exist

Is better than being afraid you might have died

I said I wouldn’t do this again

And In a way I kept my word

Cause this time the real thing it really happened

And in a way that’s worse

‘Cause now I know what I’m losing

Not a model I made up and never held

I’ve come so far from old illusions

But they still live in me as far as I can tell 

‘Cause even if you had let me love you

I’d still need to learn to love myself

Looks like it’s time to learn myself 

I woke up before 9 am 

For the first time in years 

And now I don’t what to do with all these hours

Or the fear

Cause it just seems to keep on coming

I’ve got nothing left to numb it with 

So I guess I’ll  finally find out why it’s all here

And it’s not what I thought it was

Now that I’m looking closely 

I’ve been running from my own shadow 

Wish that someone would have told me

So I guess I have to thank you

‘Cause I wouldn’t have that break through 

If you hadn’t been such a perfect mirror

Yeah now I see what I’ve been losing

The misplaced parts of me that no one ever held

I lived so long in old illusions

I couldn’t hear them crying out to me for help

Yeah even if you had let me love you

I’d still need to learn to love myself

It’s about time I learned to love myself

For a While

Think about a love

No cemetery can hold

Won’t linger in ashes

Can’t keep it in bone

Heading back to the bay

Not sure what I’ll find

Everything’s a bummer 

But it’s almost summer

So let’s put it off for a while

Not chopping down trees

But I’m helping them fall

No intention to deceive 

Couldn’t be my fault?

Getting swallowed by the sun 

On a long enough timeline

Everything’s a bummer 

But it’s almost summer

So let’s put it off for a while

Doors open on the right

River’s churning up foam

Ope, sorry on the street

Cosmically alone

Undercarriage of the city

And I know what I’ll find

Everything’s a bummer 

But it’s almost summer so

let’s put it off for a while